Sickly lil’ one.

I am very thankful that in the 21+ months that Aidan has been alive he has only gotten sick once. Aside from normal teething fever and diarrhea, he has had sinus congestion once. He couldn’t breathe very well, but he was over it in no time.

Now he has a runny nose, itchy and watery eyes and sneezing. Poor baby. I saw a commercial today for a new product from Tylenol called Simply Soothing that has no medicine and helps to moisturize and clean out the nasal passage. Of course, my Walmart didn’t have any. So I’m just using Vick’s Vapo-rub.

I feel like shit just a little bit. My body is aching, I’m getting a headache and I feel a little warm.

I really wish I lived in Florida right now so I wouldn’t have to deal with this crazy weather change. I need toget the flu shot when I go to work tomorrow before I become ill. Hope it’s not too late.


Today I was the minority.

What a hectic day!!! Ahhh!

I just got home about 45 minutes ago. This is the first time I’ve gotten online.

I had to get the Mowery’s photos sorted out since they ordered for 3 families. That took a little while. Then I prepared to take Aidan to get his shots. 😐

I made the appointment at the Health Department because I discovered that they only charge $13.75 for all of his shots. If I went to his doctor, I would have had to pay a $30 copay (I believe).

We had to wait in the lobby for a while. At first, he was checking out all the kids and calm. Then he got comfortable and started jumping in my lap and talking up a storm. I felt guilty because I knew he was getting ready to be in pain and he didn’t.

While in the lobby, the majority of people were Mexicans. There were 3 white people including myself and 6 Mexican people (all with about 15 kids running around). I felt disgusted the whole time I was there because it just felt nasty in there. The windows were grimey and so were the floors. The chairs looked tattered and worn. Aidan’s pediatrician has a well building and a sick building. I LOVE that!!


Once we made it back to the office, she was preparing the needles and Aidan was looking at her like he knew what was coming. Poor baby had to get poked 5 times!! (I got the flu shot for him as well). He cried so hard that he saped and turned blood red. I started crying and kissing him on the head. As soon as she was done, I started to turn him around and cuddle. He turned himself around and held his arms up. As soon as I held him close, he stopped crying. Aww. 🙂

Then I told him, “She’s the mean person, not momma.” lol

She thought it was funny, too.

She told me that he’d be caught up in 6 months. Now I just hope that the pediatrician doesn’t recommend that we wait until then to have his surgery. The urologist doesn’t like to do it after they’re a year old. They can, they just prefer not to.

Guess I’ll call Aidan’s doctor next week and find out.

Since Aidan is too young for ice cream, I bought him a toy. He chose a xylophone!!

Seasonal Affective Disorder

a.k.a. SAD – ironic, eh? 

According to the DSM IV (what psychologists/psychiatrists use to diagnose disorders, etc)…

Stolen from the aafp’s website:

Diagnostic Criteria for a Major Depressive Episode
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  1. At least five of the following symptoms have been present during the same two-week period, nearly every day, and represent a change from previous functioning. At least one of the symptoms is either (1) depressed mood or (2) loss of interest or pleasure. NOTE: Do not include symptoms that are clearly due to a general medical condition, or mood-incongruent delusions or hallucinations.(1) Depressed mood (or alternatively can be irritable mood in children and adolescents).
    (2) Markedly diminished interest or pleasure in all, or almost all, activities.
    (3) Significant weight loss when not dieting or weight gain or decrease or increase in appetite. |
    (4) Insomnia or hypersomnia.
    (5) Psychomotor agitation or retardation.
    (6) Fatigue or loss of energy.
    (7) Feelings of worthlessness or excessive or inappropriate guilt.
    (8) Diminished ability to think or concentrate, or indecisiveness.
    (9) Recurrent thoughts of death (not just fear of dying), recurrent suicidal ideation without a specific plan, or a suicide attempt or a specific plan for committing suicide.
  2. The symptoms are not better accounted for by a mood disorder due to a general medical condition, a substance-induced mood disorder, or bereavement (normal reaction to the death of a loved one).
  3. The symptoms are not better accounted for by a psychotic disorder like schizoaffective disorder.

Reprinted with permission from American Psychiatric Association. Diagnostic and statistical manual of mental disorders. 4th ed. Washington, D.C.: American Psychiatric Association, 1994:327. Copyright 1994.


Criteria for Seasonal Pattern Specifier
  1. Regular temporal relationship between the onset of major depressive episodes and a particular time of the year (unrelated to obvious season-related psychosocial stressors)
  2. Full remissions (or a change from depression to mania or hypomania) also occur at a characteristic time of the year
  3. Two major depressive episodes meeting criteria A and B in last two years and no nonseasonal episodes in the same period
  4. Seasonal major depressive episodes substantially outnumber the nonseasonal episodes over the individual’s lifetime

Reprinted with permission from American Psychiatric Association. Diagnostic and statistical manual of mental disorders. 4th ed. Washington, D.C.: American Psychiatric Association, 1994:390. Copyright 1994.

So, I’ve believed for some time now that I have this condition because when winter comes, I get really depressed. I feel lifeless at times…like I have no purpose but to just walk around bundled in warm clothing and do nothing. When warm weather returns, I perk back up, although, I’m not a happy little hippo. I just feel a lot less depressed.

I dread this winter because it will be my first non-pregnant, hormonal winter. I know it’s getting ready to get worse; worse than it has ever been. I’ve never been on birth control and thus far, I’ve felt like an on-edge crazy woman for the most part. I’m not sure if I want to endure this for the next 5 years.

Will it ever get better? Will this irritability subside? How long until I feel normal??

Mommies aren’t perfect. There’s no manual for motherhood.

Over the past few nights Aidan has woke up during the night – usually around 3 am – my guess is because he’s in pain from teething again. That, or because he’s not eating enough and not staying full through the night. He also had bad gas yesterday. Fart here. Fart there. Fart everywhere!

Well, I had gotten accustomed to sleeping through the night again. Suddenly I am awoken to have to tend to him. Not that I mind that at all, it’s just that it seems like forever to get him back to sleep. Really it isn’t, but because I’m not used to waking up again, I’m tired as hell when I do.

Last night I laid down to go to bed around midnight. Shortly after – like 15 minutes – just when I was getting comfy and asleep, he wakes up. I was very frustrated and shaky (you know when something startles you awake?).

Then he woke up again at like 4 am. Double whammy!! Man, was I tired. I was stumbling trying to get to the kitchen to make him some food and stuff. I was aggravated – not at Aidan – but at myself because it was like I couldn’t figure out what was wrong and fix it. And I didn’t want to ask Mike for help because he has to work; I don’t. I never want to bother him because he works long, rough hours. I don’t want to put my job off on him because I’m tired.

But….sometimes I’ll need help. Motherhood can be very exhausting and demanding, especially when your child is ill. Children get ill when teething. It’s painful and can cause fever, coughing, etc. I’m very fortunate that he’s never been sick from a virus or anything horrible like that.

Tylenol takes care of what we’ve gone through.

Back to my night. So I fed Aidan a bowl of rice and a bottle!! In the middle of the night. He slept until about 7:15am-ish when  put him in bed with me. Then we slept until 9am. There’s nothing better than cuddling with my child. Not even sex!!

This morning, Mike and I talked about last night and I broke down. I have a hard time asking for help with things…especially when I know how to do them.

There’s no manual on motherhood, so what you may do one day, may not work the next. Clearly I must change his eating habits and increase his intake.

He poops so much, too. I promise I change his diaper every hour and when he poops, immediately, but he’s still getting diaper rashes regularly. This is his first one in a couple of weeks or so. I think it’s the sweet potatoes that make him poop. It turns his butt red and it smells differently which signifies a chemical change which is what is burning his butt.

Poor baby. He cries when I try to clean him. I plan to just wash him when he poops.

Look at my rocking baby in his Misfits onesie and motorcycle boots!!



Uhh….Aidan had the worst doodie experience ever.

He was in his rainforest bouncer when he stopped, leaned over and stared at me. I thought maybe he was going to puke again because he had just vomitted (for the first time in a LONG while). So I kept a close eye on him. Then came a grunt. Uh. Uhhh. Uh. Uhhhhhhh. He semi-strained for a good minute – longer than usual anyways.

So I was relieved to know he was just dookeying.

Then the smell hit me. It smelled like really bad vomit; kind of like when you wake up with a hangover and smell the nasty vomit from the night before in pile somewhere. It was so disgusting. I thought he had vomitted again. I went to check him out. I didn’t see any vomit. He was bouncing at the time, too.

I discovered that it was just the poop. It had leaked out of his diaper, in the seat of his bouncer, down his leg into the floor. Not piles of it, just a little pile. He managed to step in it, jump in it and smear it all underneath him. What a mess!!! It took a good 45 minutes to clean up.

I can still smell it despite all of the wipes and disinfecting cleaner that I used. I think the smell is stuck in my nose. Blech.

Hush little baby don’t say a word…

More sleep troubles.

For the past few nights Aidan has gone to sleep around 9pm and woke around 11:30-12am screaming/crying. I now know – well, am sure – that that’s from his two little teeth coming in!

He just isn’t sleeping through the night. He just turned 7 months 3 days ago and still has the same sleep pattern he’s had for several months. He’s pulled a few all-nighters, but not become regular at it. Isn’t it time??

I just wonder if I’m feeding him enough. Here’s his regular day as far as consumption goes:

  • He eats a bowl of oatmeal for breakfast, then will drink a little formula before going to sleep for a nap.
  • For lunch, he has 2 jars of food: one fruit and one vegetables. He’ll have a little formula before napping.
  • For dinner he eats a bowl of brown rice and a little formula before napping.
  • His last meal is a bottle of formula with rice in it.

Since I came to the conclusion that he needs a little more food, I started giving him a jar of breakfast food (BeechNut Good Morning brand) with his oatmeal, giving him a little less oatmeal. I also added a jar of fruit when he eats his bowl of rice for dinner, giving him a little less rice.

Does this sound like too much, not enough, just right?? Input please!!!